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in which our hero moves slowly forward,--as do we all. [Jun. 4th, 2009|01:34 am]
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I'm writing this on a bus.

It's raining, and New Jersey is rolling along beneath us -- rain slides along the window. Like always, I'm moving through my present towards my future never seeming to reach it, but acquring more past every time I look back. There were days, I remember distinctly, when I was working on Armed America when I desperately wanted it to be the future -- I was slogging along and I thought I was going nowhere, I hadn't accomplished anything and I wanted to be on the Other Side, looking back and thinking "Ah! Job well done!" it didn't seem like that time was going to come and the days crept and it seemed like I was in a hot car, or an airport terminal, or on the sofa of some kind soul I'd only met that day, but I wasn't anywhere near where I wanted to be. The work went ... slowly.

And now that I look back, that was three years ago. And not only did the work get done, the project get completed, the book came out, the book got crazy famous, but so many other great things have happened too, and I'm not even sure how it happened. And I realize now that the hot car, the airport terminal, and the sofas and livingrooms of strangers are exactly the places that I needed to be, and I wouldn't trade them for a shortcut to the goal line.

I wish I could reach back through time three years and write myself in the margin of those agonized journals saying "just wake up every morning and do what you're doing, don't pine for tomorrow, she'll come on her own schedule and things will go wonderfully." Maybe I should flip forward a couple hundred pages and write that in the margin anyway, though I doubt I'll forget.

So we're on a bus coming back from the SPIN.COM book club where Neil read, Amanda sung, and I crained my neck to try and see photos I'd taken projected on a giant screen behind me and it was wonderful. I got to wallk through a room and hear people whisper that's Kyle Cassidy which is about the best feeling you can have ( -- unless compromising photos of you snorting Bolivian Marching Powder off of the stomach of a hooker in a hotel in Flint while wearing her underwear have just surfaced in the National Enquirer, then that whispering is probaly not so fun.....) I got to see something I worked long and hard on come to fruition, be birthed, and be wonderful. (And I got to see one of the two copies of that book currently on this contenent auctioned off for THIRTEEN HUNDRED DOLLARS -- I kid you not: $1,300.)

Life is pretty awesome. So awesome that I don't feel bad that I'm missing the after-party. It would be great to be there, but when I get home there are cats who will run in circles around me and there are new projects that must be worked on, must have their small moments of attention, so that they may roll, slowly perhaps, but yet inevitably, toward their own Grand Finalies which lie somewhere in the future, somewhere in the days ahead, somwhere hundreds of journal pages from here where I, a little older, might look back at this night and think "you need no comforting words, because I think you understand."



Some photos, edited on a bus with Paint Shop Pro 5.0:














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[User Picture]From: [info]fairytalevegas
2009-06-04 05:57 am (UTC)

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you're awesome.
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 06:01 am (UTC)

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oh yeah, freakin' [info]fairytalevegas was there, with some sort of giant camera lens and a huge two page spread of one of her fotoz in the book!
[User Picture]From: [info]faustian_wish
2009-06-04 06:10 am (UTC)

Librarian approved.

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Despite motels smelling of rotting meat, I knew that what you were embarking on was bigger than one book.

This is a fantastic post. You are fantastic.
[User Picture]From: [info]mutantenemy
2009-06-04 06:16 am (UTC)

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This is very inspiring. Thank you. :)
[User Picture]From: [info]yagathai
2009-06-04 06:20 am (UTC)

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This came at precisely the right time.
[User Picture]From: [info]ltlpengy
2009-06-04 06:23 am (UTC)

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Quiche will be very pleased to see Boss with purple hair!

Congratulations on seeing how popular your work is, and wow - 1,300 dollars.
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 06:25 am (UTC)

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jaws started hanging open once it went over $250 and then they just stayed on the floor as it went up and up and up ....

quiche is a trendsetter. i should post her purple hair pix!
[User Picture]From: [info]secrets_n_lies
2009-06-04 06:48 am (UTC)

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fabulous images! i wish i could have been there :(
[User Picture]From: [info]tiny_little_dot
2009-06-04 07:09 am (UTC)

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Excellent.

First picture makes me want stockings & garters...
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 07:11 am (UTC)

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that, is a good thing.

amandas looked to be wool or some such.
[User Picture]From: [info]weezerchild703
2009-06-04 07:17 am (UTC)

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Hi Kyle. It was wonderful meeting you tonight (right before the signing). Thank you for the post card. I will place it in my WKAP book when it arrives, and remember how beautiful tonight was.
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 04:56 pm (UTC)

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it was awesome to meet you -- i wish we'd had time to hang around more -- we made the bus by 10 minutes.
[User Picture]From: [info]angleburn1
2009-06-04 08:00 am (UTC)

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GAH! SO jealous. DO you think you'll do a book tour with this? As one Portland resident I'm sure we'd love to have you.

I love Neil and Amanda is awesome but I'll be buying this book for your work.

You inspire me.
[User Picture]From: [info]leemoyer
2009-06-04 05:07 pm (UTC)

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We've been trying for a visit to Portland from K + T for a while. I suspect they cannot resist much longer. lol
[User Picture]From: [info]sudenheimo
2009-06-04 10:55 am (UTC)

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"Counting the cars on the New Jersey Turnpike
they've all come to look for America..." - Paul Simon -

Love the way you've caught the silver in Neil's hair.
[User Picture]From: [info]february_sky
2009-06-04 11:21 am (UTC)

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right now, i'm sort of occupying that space you were in three years ago, wishing that this period of time was over so that i can be certain of things and not feel so aimless, so desparately muddled; so reading this really lifted my spirits and provided encouragement. thank you.
[User Picture]From: [info]maleghast
2009-06-04 11:24 am (UTC)

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Congrats on another fabulous milestone in your career, which looks as though it will be pretty successful!

It must be fabulous to collaborate with such fascinating people as Neil and Amanda; I'm a little jealous, but in the good way, that means I am impressed and inspired :-)
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 02:33 pm (UTC)

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wait till you see the ego likeness cover!
[User Picture]From: [info]ysobelle
2009-06-04 12:07 pm (UTC)

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Oh, sweet heavens! That bookstore...! Squee! Do you think, perhaps, you could bring that back for us one day? We'd be ever so grateful!



And again, how lovely-- congrats!
[User Picture]From: [info]serenity_winner
2009-06-04 12:11 pm (UTC)

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PAINT SHOP PRO 5?! oh god I miss that program so much ;_;

That was my first big image editing program. I learned how to color drawings digitally in that program. Before I even knew what layers were or had a tablet or anything. Memories...
[User Picture]From: [info]kugelblitz
2009-06-04 12:25 pm (UTC)

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Nice Kyle, your writing is getting as interesting as your images.
[User Picture]From: [info]wanderingcherie
2009-06-04 12:26 pm (UTC)

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I didn't expect to end up in tears when I started reading this.
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 02:32 pm (UTC)

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I didn't expect you to either, but it's somehow wonderful to hear. Thank you.
[User Picture]From: [info]mantaraggio
2009-06-04 12:36 pm (UTC)

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Aw, man, Housing Works is my favorite organization. Wish I could have been there.
[User Picture]From: [info]ms_violet
2009-06-04 01:19 pm (UTC)

give us this day our daily Kyle

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Once again, dude, great post. I'm still in the stage where I need the validation, and I wish I could tell when I'm wasting my time/going in the wrong direction, and when I'm not.
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 04:57 pm (UTC)

Re: give us this day our daily Kyle

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your play was awesome. i think you're going in the right direction.
[User Picture]From: [info]chandrielle
2009-06-04 01:21 pm (UTC)

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Congratulations on all of your success. It is well deserved.

I have this urge to scrawl "Mrs." on the sign on the chair that Trillian is sitting in. Or possibly cross out your name in the next chair and write "Mr. Trillian Stars."
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 02:29 pm (UTC)

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[info]trillian_stars is not anybody's +1!
[User Picture]From: [info]mattcaron
2009-06-04 01:40 pm (UTC)

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or on the sofa of some kind soul I'd only met that day

As one of those folks, we rather enjoyed having you as houseguests. If you're ever in 12074, you're welcome to use us as a crashpad.

Accomodation options:
(1) Proper room with pull out sofa
(2) Inflatable beds scattered throughout
(3) Camping by the stream (can't see the house, can barely hear the cars, but there's hot breakfast and showers).

There's 4 bathrooms, 3 of which have showers, so we can put up an entourage too.

If it happens to be in the late summer/early fall, we'll have fresh vegetables from the garden. Other times of the year, they'll likely be frozen from the previous harvest.

Edit:

I should probably mention that you can throw a rock and hit the beginning of the Adirondack park line.

Edited at 2009-06-04 01:43 pm (UTC)
[User Picture]From: [info]ednoria
2009-06-04 01:45 pm (UTC)

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Wow. $1300. I bet you felt like they put one too many zeros in there. Especially since it took MORE THAN ONE PERSON to be bidding that high.

Did the other one get auctioned off too? How much did that one go for?

And if you know, did any of the Ednoria pics get in after the revamping? If not, I'd like to know now so I can manage my expectations when it arrives in July!
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 04:57 pm (UTC)

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there is one ednoria photo i saw in there.
[User Picture]From: [info]twinkelbelpeach
2009-06-04 01:58 pm (UTC)

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Saving this in my memories. I think you inspired a lot of people today.
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 02:30 pm (UTC)

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I never think so, but then I get an email from someone a year later saying "I printed out something you said and taped it over my desk and now I've published my first comic book."

so who knows!
From: (Anonymous)
2009-06-04 02:41 pm (UTC)

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Fantastic photos, Kyle. Congrat on the success and having people whisper your name like that. That's brilliant, truly. Also, where in Jersey are you? That's where I grew up. Awesome place, if you forget all the Sopranos crap. (I grew up on a horse farm! And no one in my family wore a track suit. *grin*) I'll be there next week, actually. (Best Italian restaurant, here I come...)

Anyway, thanks for sharing these--your wisdom, stories, and photos.

Ali
[User Picture]From: [info]kylecassidy
2009-06-04 04:58 pm (UTC)

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we just went through nj and popped out on the other side.
[User Picture]From: [info]morlith
2009-06-04 02:54 pm (UTC)

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Thanks, Kyle. I really needed to read something like this today.
[User Picture]From: [info]fiascofarm
2009-06-04 03:20 pm (UTC)

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Very well said. It really hit home for me.
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