but, before i tell you about the information, i will tell you this: When I got there she was meowing, standing, falling, meowing. They let me open the cage, I picked her up and gave her the lj lovin' and she started purring. She purred consistantly for 30 minutes while i held her, rubbed her little head, scratched her little belly, she closed her eyes in joy, and, her feet sort of spastically waved around uncontrollably. she definatly is not the person driving the engine of her body. oh well.
anyway. now onto the medical stuff.
the spinal tap is consistent with an infection. but, apparantly that doesn't narrow it down terribly much. sort of like someone asking "is it cold out?" and the answer comes back "i can see sunlight!"
it could be a hideous fatal infection, it could be an infection that will be cured by the antibiotics they are giving her now. they'll know a bit more tomorrow and, the good news is:
roswell might be coming home tomorrow
it's possible she's out of the zone of danger where her vet couldn't handle whatever happens. tomorrow afternoon she'll have had 15 or so more hours of antibiotics, she might be better. she might be worse. if she's worse, then she stays in ICU and we re-evaluate.
my understanding of my conversation with the doctor is this:
1) she could very well die.
2) she could completely recover.
3) at the moment, we've done all that we can or should do. if she does die, its because the baby jesus wanted the perfect kitten and not for our lack of trying to keep her here on earth.
something like that.
so, all in all, i feel better after my visit. i feel better about the idea of her not making it as well. at the moment, her Quality of Life is the only thing that's important.
For a kitten that's had the most hideous 10 week life, I really want the rest of it to be so freaking wonderful.
i was planning on this only being about five lines. sorry i ran on. i love that little girl.