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Nicole Blackman is Alive Inside [Aug. 8th, 2012|09:21 am]
kyle cassidy
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At some point someone cooler than me gave me a copy of Nicole Blackman's book Blood Sugar and it was the book I'd been looking for my entire adult life. Here I thought, is my Sylvia Plath, the voice of this time. She told stories of people in empty rooms and city streets, of crippling relationships, where love is militarized, of people filled with the empty spaces left in them by the absence of someone else.
         I am part of a small story
         in a big house
         a damaged messenger
         who lost her credibility.

I devoured this book and later discovered, probably at Blaxx or Zipperhead or one of the stores on South Street back when it was something other than a Little Mardi Gras, that Nicole Blacman was the vocalist for the Golden Palominos (and later, occasionally, KMFDM) This CD, Dead Inside, is $7 as a digital download from Amazon, you should get it and I discovered that when you put her record on at a party everybody thought you were one of the really cool people who Knew Something They Didn't. Nicole Blackman was a secret

Click to go to amazon.com, you can read much of the book in the preview, it's out of print and used copies are all like $100.

Her web presence was cryptic. She'd be interviewed in strange magazines you'd never heard of, that you could only get on South Street, that were done in all black and white and the photo reproduction was terrible but you'd go out and try and find all the bands they interviewed and it would open up your whole world because you'd never heard anything like this.

Nicole Blackman fell off my radar in the early 2000's, only to reappear when the Village Voice did an article about her new show, The Courtisan Tales. She was, it said, weary of doing shows for huge audiences. This show was done one on one. Audience members were blindfolded, led into a room, sat in a chair, and Nicole would come in, whisper a story in your ear, and leave. It was a leap into an extra dimension for me.

When we did the Big Book of Who Killed Amanda Palmer I brought Dead Inside with me and I listened to it over and over that week, looking for an inspiration to make things different and I thanked Nicole in the credits, although I'd never met her and really didn't know anything about her.

About three years later someone forwarded me a Twitter message, from Nicole Blackman, who I didn't even know as on Twitter. "Who's Kyle Cassidy?" It said, "and why did he thank me in the credits of Who Killed Amanda Palmer?" So I wrote back and introduced myself and tried not to fanboi too much. I sent her links to things I'd done and said "You know, I have an idea for a Top Sekret Projekt" -- she said it sounded like a good one.

We decided to meet up at the Amanda Palmer show in New York and talk about it. And we met up and she was marvelous and ... there may be a Top Sekret Projekt in the works.

And in the meantime ... if you're living your life right, eventually all your idols will gravitate to your living room....

Nicole Blackman
New York, 2012

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[User Picture]From: morbid_curious
2012-08-08 02:26 pm (UTC)
I first heard of her through the KMFDM track Dogma. I most recently re-encountered her with Recoil. Her work is simply stunning, and I don't stun easily.

Top Sekret Projekt, you say? Near giddy with anticipation!
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[User Picture]From: kylecassidy
2012-08-08 02:39 pm (UTC)
That "liquid" album is awesome. The song "Black Ice" is my favorite.
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[User Picture]From: morbid_curious
2012-08-08 02:52 pm (UTC)
Agreed! Incredibly evocative sound and words. Though I really want to hear (or maybe write) the rest of that story, too.
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[User Picture]From: kylecassidy
2012-08-08 03:00 pm (UTC)
Nicole said it's a true story, that Alan Wilder was driving his car and a plane crashed in front of him. It's an amazing ... song? Audio thingie? Whatever. I always get chills listening to it.
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[User Picture]From: midnightstation
2012-08-08 03:12 pm (UTC)
ZOMG! I totally remember when "The Courtisan Tales" were in NYC. I missed them and I was really upset about it. The concept was so amazing. I soooo wish it would come back. Hell, even go on tour. The brilliance behind that show has never left my brain. Thank you for bringing the artist name to the project for me.

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[User Picture]From: catfish23
2012-08-08 03:51 pm (UTC)
Kyle, this is going to sound like a nutty question, but does Nicole Blackman write about diabetes at all? Her work looks great, and I'm interested, but/and I also have Type 1 diabetes, and I spend time worrying about, well, my blood sugar. So if she touches on that topic, I'm even more interested. Any insight there?
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[User Picture]From: kylecassidy
2012-08-08 04:29 pm (UTC)
i can't recall reading the word in her book.

It's something Roswell talks about all the time though!

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[User Picture]From: catfish23
2012-08-10 03:50 pm (UTC)
Oh, man! That must be some serious cat bribery!
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[User Picture]From: kylecassidy
2012-08-09 04:32 pm (UTC)
aw, thanks! If you work at making some things happen, other things happen more or less by themselves, but because you laid that groundwork, im discovering...
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[User Picture]From: orcaarrow
2012-08-08 11:37 pm (UTC)
Kyle, I am always so amazed at your work. You have earned everything that is happening for you.

Also, you are proof that I am living my life wrong!
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[User Picture]From: kylecassidy
2012-08-09 04:33 pm (UTC)

time to fix this!

(& thanks for the kind words!)
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